Saturday, August 10, 2013

One Step Forward...Ten Steps Back

We were gearing up to take Josh home today, but that sonofabitch fever came back and a brand new rash came to torment him. The nurse said that he will be here for at least another 48 hours til either something grows, or does not grow in the various cultures they have collected. Funny, but the one place they have not taken a culture is from the wound itself. Actually, the bite is area is bad, but the real issue is the toxicity in his system still causing havoc.
I am feeling demoralized as hell and between this stuff and my awful PMS hormones making me a raging pissed off asshole, I am such an emotional mess.
I wish I could have my Myra Daffodil Bunny here with me. She usually hates being held like a baby, but I hold her and cry into her neck and ears, she is so sweet and lets me get it all out.
I should not complain. My boy only has a wicked spider bite. Someone somewhere in this world will find out their baby has cancer.
God have mercy.

7 comments:

  1. Brandi, the word has been sent out. Bunnies will soon begin to converge on the hospital. You are supposed to be a mess. The other word for this "mother" or "mum" (I learned that from Speedy). It is your time to feel, and I suggest you do it. You remember the stuff about faith, hope, and love? Keep loving that sweet boy of yours anyway you want. Just remember, as they say, "Blessed are the hopeful, for they shall inherit the future." Oh, yes, and that part about "desolation will not leave the desert until it first leaves the heart." Love, Juana

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  2. It doesn't Matter Josh is your Baby Boy and right now you want to do something to help make him better and if you had a magic wand to wave and make it all go away you would but you are doing the one thing that you are wonderful at and thats be a mum and be there for him.So you are allowed to complain to rant and rave at us if you feel you want to and you know I will call you if you need a verbal release from the stress that you are unable to do to your family.I can take it and I won't be insulted by what ever you come out with,and take mini me Speedy with youso he can be with you in spirit,Just remember we love you,xx Rachel and Speedy

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    1. Actually, some good news. His wound has stopped spreading and he has a new kind of dressing. That is great news, and Josh got some sleep and is feeling a little more like himself I think.

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    2. Then we keep praying for Josh and you all,every little thing helps,love you,xx Speedy and Rachel

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  3. Yep, Speedy and Rachel are right. We love you all.

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  4. Brandi, would Josh consent to a live Josh cam? This is for those of us who have to check every five minutes for news.

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  5. Brandi, I was so glad too see your comment that the wound has stopped spreading. Hopefully that means a corner has been turnedm and its better from here on. Hugs to you both.

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