The middle aged woman choked back her sobs and wiped the snot off her nose.
"I just miss being home with my baby girl." Her lips trembled.
"Oh dear! Is she still at the breast then?"
"She's my chihuahua!"
I started a new job yesterday. My separation anxiety from my Bug was strong. No, I did not cry, but I worried about my girlbaby, my 'tinkee princess, my schweeeety, the whole time. I have no idea how in the world I became a "chihuahua person". I HATED them with a white-hot passion. But here is our "daughter", and both my husband (who absolutely hated them, too) and I are pathetic parents to this two pound she-devil. Mr. Bubbles says we will both have to throw ourselves on her funeral pyre when she dies because the pain of that loss will be too great for the two of us. He might be right.
I was feeling the misery of having had several miscarriages in a row, and my womb felt like an empty wasteland. I would see babies and get depressed. Then when Bug came into our lives, all of that changed. She satisfies all my mothering instincts.
Thanks to G-Man for letting me share my pathetic anxieties! XOXOXOXO to you, Darlin'!
I'll bet you got no sympathy at work, too.
ReplyDeleteI didn't really cry or even mention my girlbaby at all. I knew I would come off as a weirdo to people who do not understand that kind of bond. I once bonded with a baby Starling that fell out of it's nest. He was almost my whole little world. I adored him. When he died, I cried for a week. No, I SOBBED for a week. No one understood but my immediate family because they witnessed how my Sugar Baby Tweet Tweet and I interacted. The dang bird SLEPT with me under the covers, in a box lined with tea towels!
DeleteAwwwwww, Brandi Bunny, you have a pet gerbil?
ReplyDeleteThat's sweet!!
New job eh? Boy will they ever be surprised once they get to know you!
( lucky dogs )
Loved your blubbery 55
Thanks for sharing your angst, and have a Kick Ass Week End
I'm right there. I hate leaving the farm and all my furbabies. Hope you both make it through the separation anxiety.
ReplyDeleteAwe!!! I understand (well, all but the bird under your covers :)
ReplyDeleteShe looks adorable and I hope she will be featured in more 55's!
I do sympathize. I'd much rather be home with my kids (the human one is grown and has his own place) than with most other humans.
ReplyDeleteIts ok Brandi I feel the same when I leave speedy for work each day,I always miss my baby boy,which is why I get up early to have a half hour cuddle in bed with Speedy,xx Rachel
ReplyDeleteoh good luck with the new job!
DeleteMOTHERING! Oh I do know about that- animals of many, many kinds!
ReplyDeleteThe sad part was no human kinds, my hubby would be a great Dad- thanks.
Good luck on your new job, brandi! It is hard being away from our babies--both the two and four-legged variety!
ReplyDeleteOh! A middle-aged woman with a baby at the breast! You had me for a minute. People do get attached to their dogs. My hubcap is one of them and I finally caved in to another puppy. He always gets his way in the end.
ReplyDeleteBrandi, love the photo of Bug. It's amazing what animals can do for our hearts, isn't it? I was in a pretty deep hole after Weasley crossed the Bridge. Jensen is bringing me back out of it, the little Rascal! And Brandi, you amaze me each Friday, at what you can distill into 55 words. Beautuful.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Karen. I am so glad you have Jensen, too. He is a little ham and I love seeing him on HIS blog...lol.
DeleteAWwwww! What a cutie-pie. Hope the new job goes well for you too!
ReplyDeleteLove and loveliness to you and yours. Regrettably, the Ladies in Vans love you and have some principles. Who knew?
ReplyDeleteI am always regretting my honesty. And every time I decide to dislike someone intensely, they always do something nice for me immediately after. And I KNOW it's God proving a point!!!! It is a bit frustrating when I have to grudgingly give up my well-manicured animosity toward someone I was convinced is a jerk.
DeleteYep, it is terribly frustrating, but you know the rule. When the Holy Spirit speaks, it is time to listen up, and in your case, Brandi, the message is you are a good person forever according to the eternal will of God. While Jesus was naming all living creatures, His eyes fell upon two rascals. To one He said,"You shall be called "Bug, the chihuahua, and you My Dear Child shall be called Brandi, the good."
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